Tinuviel’s blog

well  my hubbie called me last night which i was very happy about, its been about a week since i talked to him. and im getting very excited bc he will be returning on march 20th YAY!!!  UG i hate it when they go to the field.

i was getting dressed earlier today and i decide to try on one of my pre pregnancy pants, that didnt fit me two weeks ago. bc ive been working out like a mad man for two months. and guess what THEY FIT!!!!!! im sooo excited i had to share it with someone, would share with my hubbie but he's currently gone for traing, but i want to suprise him when he gets back, so that will be fun he heee! but if you have had kids im sure you understand the feeling i had when i was able to button up my pre pregnancy jeans quite easily. oh man this is just sooo cool.
now i just have to work on getting to the size i was before i had my FIRST child *sigh* which shouldnt be to tought i have about 10 more pounds to go..  

    it started in late january 2008. after having my second child ( which is a beautiful baby girl ). well im a stay at home mom in the army, and i have not seen my family and friends back home for a year 1/2. my hubbie is gone sometimes for weeks at a time, which is difficult for me bc i have never lived by myself. but anyway, after having my second child, i become very depressed to the point of not even wanting to do the things that would normally bring me joy. i was having a very hard time breastfeeding her, it hurt so bad i would dred feeding time, which confused me bc i never had that problem with my first child ( which is a boy ). until one day i got so angry with my son bc he wouldnt listen to me at all, and i threw one of his car toys into his room. which is something i would never do. the only other time i threw something was my cell phone at a wall out of anger towards my ex boyfriend. i have never even been in a physical fight ever ( well i dont count my brother ) but back to throwing the toy, later that evening as me, my hubbie, and my son in his highchair were sitting down eating dinner together, my hubbie knew i was going through a emotional rollercoaster, so he said to me " i want you to know that im thankful for how much work you have been doing around the house lately and cooking dinner for us" then i just broke down and started crying. so i got up and wen to our bedroom and sobbed into my pillow for a while. after that day i decided to go and talk to someone that might be able to help me.  my doctor prescribed me effexor, and after a month my doctor also gave me wellbutrin, saying that they work well together. but i have been doing better in fact my hubbie recently left for a training exercise over a week ago, and i havnt even cried yet about him being gone, so i must say they are working. how ever i have been doing a lot of research on the drugs im taking and i found out about "brain shiver" which is something some people get when they come off effexor, or other antidepressants. so im a bit worried that i may have that same affect when i get off the drugs. so iv been thinking maybe i should switch to something else. but thats where the problem lies, i have know clue what else i should try.  im planning on coming off them in about a month anyway after the move. soo maybe i wont need the switch.

    i just wanted to say that i truely love you very much, and im glad you are the one who raised me. even tho it would have been some what nice to have my mother around, just so i could have known her. but i dont blame that on you, i know you were trying to do the best for me and tony. you never pushed us to do anything we didnt want to do.
    i wish you had better taste in women, you tell me you will never get married again, but i hope that you can find someone out there to grow old with bc i think you deserve that. i dont like seeing you alone. i also hope that somewhere inside you, you can find some inspiration to stop the bad habits you have obtained in the past.  
    maybe someday i will get the courage to tell this to you.

Love it or hate it, many of you lost an hour of sleep last night due to Daylight Saving Time? Worth It? Do you like it more/less now that Daylight Saving Time occurs earlier (and later) in the year?

well it hasnt happened over here yet (germany) but when it does i will probly enjoy it bc the day will be over faster, altho it will suck to have to  change all the clocks in my aptment. there are five, well six if you include the one in the car :D